Why?

Why is it that I always get major writing days when I know I will struggle to write a single thing. I was up early this morning after spending more of the early hours (after hubbie went to work) thinking about my next chapter. I eventually got up and wrote what appears to be the beginnings of a good chapter of intense feelings for all the characters. I think I like to write alot where a character can't have what they want the most before I feel it reflects real life more. I mean just because you fall in love with someone doesn't mean they will love you back or they won't already be in love with someone else. That said though...I am a sucker for happy endings at the moment and this one is destined to be just that. A wholesome, lovey dovey, kissing all the way happy ending. lol.

I know I won't get much written today as its the end of the month at work and Will & Grace is on tonight so not going to get much time on the computer unless Nick stays late. I'm doing a chapter for 'Lost without you' and then moving on to one of my older stories that has been pushed to the side for a few weeks. I'm hoping to bring it back from the dead and finish it. See I have this thing where it starts brilliantly and I really draw my readers in but then I get this blah blah and it starts to be not so brilliant.

I posted a short story on a website yesterday to be reviewed and my first review kind of hurt to be honest. Hence the fact I never show my work to anyone, it wasn't exactly horrible...it was honest but she basically told me to re-write the whole thing which wasn't the point of the story. Its supposed to be short, sweet and emotional. She said the main character cried too much and this annoyed her but if your boyf died wouldn't you cry alot?I know I would. I'm obviously missing a big point here of some sort. Oh yeah, she didn't like it. I might re-write it when I get the time after all the others are finished but until then I'm leaving as sketchy and awful as it is for the pure reason that I thought it was good considering I wrote it in about two hours!

Having Doubts

There comes a time in everyone's life when they begin to doubt their own ability! I've often wondered if I'm cut out to become a writer of any sort. I mean its not where my passion lies. I've always seen it as more of a hobby that helps me express myself but somehow walking away from it scares me. Writing brings me hope and encourages me to keeping taking things further.

Inspiration

I wrote my first story a year ago and I've realised how much I have improved. I would have never thought that I could make a person cry but I have and thats not bad because thats what I wanted. I wanted to explore different emotions with my writing. I see alot of my own dreams as inspiration...I often look to the future in the hope of finding something to latch onto. I was thinking of starting a career diary in the hope of publishing it one day. Getting into the media industry is one giant struggle but I want to inspire people. I want to make a difference in someone's life even if its just for five minutes. It would mean more to me than my own personal gain. Inspiration is a funny thing, it just seems to pop out when you least expect it, its like you have the worst writers block ever and then suddenly you feel something...its hard to explain. I sometimes see myself sitting alone in an old victorian house just writing with my little dog, Harry (haha). Its kind of sad but its the future I see sometimes.

Characters

I'm still writing my script. It's a slow process but one I am enjoying. I think my family see my writing as a stupid fantasy but its more than that. It's an expression of part of myself that not many people see. I have such a strong bond with my characters...its like they feel what they would think about a situation before I do which makes me feel like I lose part of myself when my stories end. J.K. Rowling will understand more than most when she closes the life of Harry Potter, that will be a very sad day! I try and write such fascinating characters that I almost love them as if they were real. I think my work is destined to belong in a drawer.

I love a good happy ending

I love a good happy ending but sometimes its easy just to give the audience what they least expect. I like to twist my ideas in such a way that I keep everyone guessing. I've read so many stories that you know how its going to end and its annoying. One of my stories is coming to an end and I'm planning to shock my readers right at the very end! Usually I build it up to make it sader but this time it needs to be dramatic and unexpected.

I am a creative person

I think I'm too young to really write a masterpiece. I still have alot of life to live. It's not like I need to be published. I want to make movies that make people want to take my seriously. I am a creative and an open minded person and I don't plan to ever read anything about myself in the press, I don't just journalists. This hasn't really helped my writers block but its let me get a few things off my chest. I hate putting myself forward for critiscm but if I don't I will never mount to a thing. I think people can expect alot from me as I believe that I am full of surprised and sometimes you need to take a chance...

The first post!

The first post I feel is always the most important. It's what sets out the rest of the drama. Have decide to separate my general ramblings from the writing ones. This blog will be dedicated to everything involving writing, characters and my stories.

I've been looking at creative writing courses this morning and have been brave enough to consider some competitions after my friend shouted at me last night for threatening to give up...she then decided to take my story to work and show some of her mates. To say that I am embarrassed is an understatement. Apparently they were impressed by my shocking introduction...I seem to do that lot.

I guess there will be more from me later when I try and figure out where I want to go with my new story. I have the rough idea but I can't seem to write it the way I want to!