One of those moments!

I've often wondered whether influence is what gets us through life? I've got back into reading lately as my writing as dried up a little and I've just read a booked called 'Where Rainbows End' and it really pulled at my heart strings just the fact that they should be friends for so long and not get together until they fifty and had two failed marriages really made me wonder whether sometimes it is all about time! Not everything is simple and easy to understand and I learnt that from writing. Sometimes things in front of us just don't seem as obvious to us as they do to everyone else. You could spend you whole life ignoring feelings, thoughts or moments you had with another person because you didn't believe they felt the same when really they did.

Too many people in this world ignore moments that are the most important thing. They could mean something life altering. I've had moments and completely ignored them so now I spend my time writing my frustrations. I want to teach my daughter that its okay to make mistakes and walk away as long as when you walk away its for the right reasons and not because she's scared of feeling something new.

I sometimes think that I didn't allow myself to FALL as they say but what do I really know. I've only ever been in love once and thats it. Boring, they end. Sometimes I wonder what would have been but then I'm bought back to reality with a jolt and realise that things happen for a reason and so my writing continues...

I've lost it!

I think I've come to that point...yep, fully blown WRITERS BLOCK! I thought it was something I would get over but I've had weeks if not months of not really coming up with anything. I want to see if I can write some of my new one later. Writers block is sooooo frustrating. I thought if I didn't touch my computer for a few days that I would maybe think of something but if I do it never goes down on paper as well.

Maybe this is it? Maybe the last two years of soul searching in the help of writing as suddenly come to end. Maybe I just have no soul left? Hmmmm...I want them all finished by July so I can concentrate on others things and maybe pick it up later on in the summer when I find the time but some of them are sooooo close to finishing that I can't think of what to write next. I've left some of my older ones in an attempt to write something fresher but that didn't work as well as I thought. I start chapters and they fizzle out.

I need some inspiration!!! I'll have a think over the weekend and maybe write some notes to see if I can at least finish the ones that are tormenting me!

Whoever said being a writer was easy! grrr...